Drive by: HI, all. I hope you guys have been doing well. I have not kept up at all lately. Things have been such a chaotic mess. DH finally transferred to a long term acute care hospital (LTAC) in Columbia (45 miles away) on Thursday. The long-term is kind of a misnomer... he's only approved for two weeks and of course it's out of network. They said they will negotiate for in-network pricing. Please, God, make it work! We are only allowed to visit Tues/Thurs/Sat from 1-3 p.m. When he checked in they made an exception for our daughter to come along also. It was good for us to all 3 be together again, even in a strange place.
My first visit was yesterday and they had just bathed him and shaved his beard. He looked good although he was shivering (visibly). I turned the temperature up in his room and together we took a brief nap (me leaning over the edge of the bed... hello chiropractor, I need you!). He had some lucid moments and did pretty well. Today they called and said he is still refusing meds (he has pretty much been that way since arrival) and his potassium is climbing. They are asking me to make some decisions / give them direction because it will become life-threatening soon. No, he is likely not eligible for a kidney transplant and I am not sure he wants dialysis at this point. I need to talk to him again in person and that won't be until Tuesday afternoon. I told the nurse to let me talk to him so I did and he took his meds (but not without saying no several times).
So I am feeling terribly stressed and even more confused than before. I also think, based on a comment from the social worker on Thursday, that they have lied to me about how much of his mental issues are from actual hypoxia. I'm going to demand his records tomorrow. I am so tired and sick of all of this. I just want my best friend whole and at home. I miss him.
In the midst of everything the social worker suggested applying for Medicaid since he is on Medicare (secondary) as of July 1. The division of assets worries me. I hope I/we don't lose everything. Our state has some stringent rules, unfortunately. I have hired an attorney to assist. More money and stress.
Check in: Workouts have been really lackluster. My stupid tennis elbow keeps flaring up off/on in my right arm - so much worse than the left tennis elbow with golfer's elbow that I had last year. I think I need a wrist brace like last time to keep me from doing too much with my right arm. I go see a specialist in two weeks.
In the meantime I have been enjoying KCM's RAW All about Glutes (LOVE it). She was supposed to put it up on YouTube, but I don't think she has. If she does, you must try it. I've been more lower body focused since holding weights in my hands and doing curls and such cause my elbow to ache. There is quite a bit of floor work in the All about Glutes video, so I get the workout minus tons of gripping heavy weights.
This morning I tried out TLC 1 and also a short Pilates workout because I miss boxing. I had to coax myself to work out. Things are so stressful and while I need to be forgiving of myself, I can't continue to expand beyond my already larger than normal jeans / pants / dress clothes.
Not eating is not a solution either. Ah, the paradox of a stressed out midlife!
I hope you are all well. Will try to get back here more frequently if I can. Miss you guys!