01-13-15, 05:12 PM | |
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Join Date: May 2005
Location: Minnesota
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Absolutely. I know online friends can be great, but honestly I think this topic has run it's course. Cristina, I feel for you and think you have received a lot of support and honesty regarding the topic of having more children, birth control, and just being crazy tired and isolated.
If you and your dh are unable to resolve this issue on your own, I'd encourage you to get some counseling together. A good mediator with a kind listening ear could help you both come to terms and agreement together. The virtual world is great for rallying around, supporting, and at times misunderstanding. Nothing can take the place of sitting down and working through issues face to face.
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01-13-15, 06:27 PM | |
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Join Date: Nov 2001
Location: Haifa, Israel
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I think the problem is that you already have two kids, Cristina.
I'm sorry you are having such a hard time. I'd get the nanny, try to sort things out with DH & postpone the TL decision for now, although I doubt you'll want another child later. I'm sure DH has good intentions, but he is not seeing the reality of the current situation, he is clinging to his fantasies. Whether he manages to understand what is actually happening or not, you can find ways to make your life better. |
01-13-15, 07:09 PM | ||
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I haven't read all the responses, but I found a baby group on meetup.com (I don't know if you have access to something like that), I go to the trampoline place called "Jump Street" and I call it the Mommy pickup bar. All the Mom's chat while the kids run around in plastic play houses, jumpy trampolines, and blow up trains. You walk out with phone numbers. Go to library story times. Let him play with the toys afterwards. My DH works a full time job and started a business when I was 6 months pregnant, so he does his job then goes to the shop until 8, 8:30, sometimes 10 at night. I am really on my own with this girl. I love her madly, but I get burnt out, and don't think DH gets it. She's a really good girl, but it's a lot!! I tune out a lot, use my phone, get headphones and listen to podcasts or the radio... Don't feel guilty about your parenting. I call it "sometimes just surviving". The TV is a good babysitter. Oh, and a mommy friend of mine made us some "cloud dough" which is 8 cups flour and 1 cup baby oil, and I got a plastic under the bed storage container that I put 2 batches in, and LB will play in it for an hour. Or just put rice in a bin. It makes a mess, but cleans up easy with a broom or vacuum. Anything I can do to keep her busy is awesome with me. Trust me, you have nothing to feel guilty about... everything you said is stuff I have done, my sisters have done, and my Mom confessed she did with us!! you aren't permanently damaging him. Do you remember much about being under about 4 or 5? Me either. I figure she has learned how to use technology earlier so it'll be easier for her later on in life. I've yelled over stupid things, and felt bad. She recovers, and is no worse off. Seriously. Lay off yourself. Relax. I wish I would have learned that lesson sooner! I was the stressed out Mom for the first about 2 years of her life, feeling like I was failing. Now, if we lay in bed all morning with her watching cartoons on the iPad and I play on my phone, and we don't change out of our jammies, I call us occupied. Hugs girl!! you are doing FINE. ETA to add: I was gonna be the Mom that cooked from scratch, her kid didn't eat cereal, I ate paleo and she was going to also... none of that happened. I fought with myself more than I fought with anyone else about how to raise her!!! If your husband offered a Nanny, do it. Even a day or two. I wish we could do that! DH tries to be home on Monday evening to give me an evening off, but usually it ends up being just a few hours. It's frustrating going from having lots of time to yourself to none. Now that she's 2 1/2, it's getting easier, but dang, I can totally relate to your frustration!! Huge Hugs!!
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01-13-15, 09:19 PM | |
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Join Date: Oct 2001
Location: Twin Cities, MN
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I agree with Jackie about getting some counseling. I don't mean this in a negative way, but it sounds like you, your husband and the two of you as a couple might have some issues to work through that have nothing to do with your son or having/not having another child. These were likely issues before you had your son, but your current situation is bringing them to the forefront now.
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01-14-15, 04:52 AM | ||
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Jacqi, you are also right about a fantasy that is out of touch with reality. More children will not replace nonexistent siblings. It's strange but my husband will try to help but in ways that are not very helpful sometimes. A recent example comes to mind. I was at the children's emergency room a month ago when my son was diagnosed with pneumonia. It was packed, the boy was exhausted and really sick. I had arranged for groceries to be delivered, including some foodstuffs for the planned Christmas dinner for the three of us. I asked my husband to cancel the delivery, or reschedule. He said he would go home and wait for the groceries delivery. I was bewildered but trying to avoid yet another fight. He went home, took the groceries and cooked me a three course meal. During those three hours I changed five nappies because my boy had diarrhoea, run after him because he loved playing with the sliding doors, gave medicine, gave bottles, tried to get him to eat, tried to get him to sleep, took temperatures, took him for X-ray and to be examined, gave antibiotics etc. I could really use another pair of hands, but there were none. My husband did come to pick us up and proudly showed me the rich meal he had prepared for me, also mentioning that Gran Torino was on Tv. I was fuming, but he thought he was being helpful. I never said anything to avoid having yet another fight.
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01-14-15, 08:28 AM | |
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Hugs and suppport to you, Christina
Cristina, I want to voice my support for you again.
It may also be that DH is hearing you, but he's not really listening to you. That is, sometimes you may just need validation, not for him to "solve" the problem. You may need to hear his appreciation for your efforts, just as he does (this is truly a team effort). Or you need to direct the efforts, if only to give you some sense of control in the chaos that involves the day-to-day efforts of raising a child. I would honestly suggest counseling, as this may end up coming up again and again. |
01-14-15, 10:04 AM | ||
Join Date: Nov 2007
Location: Belfast, UK!
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01-14-15, 10:54 AM | |
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Join Date: Feb 2004
Location: New York
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Christina, I'm a complete stranger, but your posts are making me increasingly sad, and I wonder if you're aware of the picture you're painting of your husband. Does he never listen to you, take you seriously, or show you respect? Does he always get his way? Is he completely cold to your suffering? Because that's how he sounds to me, and I agree with those recommending counseling.
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