01-27-21, 01:49 PM | |
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Join Date: Nov 2001
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Hi, sweet friends! I am so sorry I am so sporadic. I think our birthdays (his - ours - mine) took more of a mental and emotional toll than I thought they would. I didn't really celebrate much, although my brother came home and took me and mom out to eat and then DD and her fiancé took me out the next day.
I visit the mausoleum most days - even if it's just for a minute to check on the solar LED candle I have left there since Christmas Eve. I talk to him sometimes and cry often. I thought I was past the panic attacks (can't breathe) but they came back a bit this month. I know this is a forever road and will have hills and valleys. It's just frustrating and sad. I miss him beyond words. DD and her fiance put in an offer on a house and managed to land the house when the first round offer that beat them out fell through. I believe closing is still set for Feb. 19. It is a beautiful older home (built in 69) in a very family friend neighborhood 2 blocks from one of our better elementary schools. DD dreams of babies. I pray they have one! I could use some sunshine! They are still slated to marry Mar. 21, but DD has some days that she won't work on the wedding. Some days her grief over DH just overpowers the planning process. She is a super sensitive soul. I am so sorry for being away for so long. I have been working out - although I find if I do weights more than 2 days in a row or push with a longer workout, I will miss a day or two... or just do a 1 mile walk. I am enjoying Rick Bhullar's disco walk. If you haven't tried it, you should. https://youtu.be/RgzdDZ_Tz5g I had better go for now. Will try to catch up on reading the posts and then will post my workouts. That's my plan! Waves! I miss you all!
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